Write I say, over and over.
I keep telling yourself to write all the time. Write more Ana, tell more stories, tell your stories, tell your tales and don’t be afraid. I keep telling myself to write more, it will help me become more, I have gone through deception in the last week or so in two very distinct areas in my life.
These two areas would include my schooling and my work. As determined as I am, I am very well accustomed to doing my job and my school work to perfection. I pride myself in my perfectionism and my ability to be able to perform to the best of my abilities in what I do. I have to say that the deception that came from both fields this past week or so has definitely left me heartbroken. I feel as though my efforts were lost in a lot of way and my abilities were disregarded. i have never felt so useless to a certain extent and I have to say it has broken me a little. These things make you as a person, I know… But nonetheless they are disheartening to feel and can leave a bad taste in ones mouth.
I will turn 24 in a few hours and I am ready to make decisions that will carry me to the next phase of my life. I am done with cafe jobs. I need a more professional environment. I will not be around much longer to see other mediocre people trump over me. I will be more than what I am now. I must remember that my aspirations are more than theirs. i want to be much more, I am more I’m just a little ahead of my time. No worries, wether the world catches up or I will leave it behind. Like they say, May the bridges you burn light the way.
How long has it been?
I haven’t graced my Tumblr in a LOOONG time, the occasional text here and there maybe but none the less I have been occupied beyond belief with school work, work, and life in general.
But as a quick update:
Finals are next week, I can almost taste summer. I can’t wait!
I’m dating someone quite remarkable and I really hope it works out.
I’m obsessed with protein shakes
oh and and I booked a little trip to INDIA! for the summer :D you can bet I’m beyond ecstatic.
oh and I’m PR chair for my design student body at school.
So maybe the year started out rough and I’m not saying it still isn’t tough, cause it is. Problems are problems and a divorce is never easy, wether it be while its going on or when its over. The shadow always lingers, and not to mention a death. Duvalias death still lingers on me everyday and everyday I remember her.
Disappointments are inevitable, but its quite clear that life throws you good and bad sucker punches. So I’ll embrace them, difficult, easy, mediocre, call them what you want at the end of the day it’s one thing and one thing only, LIFE.
It’s been a while…
Since I felt this confident. I think it’s due to the fact that ive lost 5 pounds :)
I can’t wait to get more fit :)
so this is me: